There is this guy. I am terribly smitten, butterflies, etc about. I don't trust happiness enough to be satisfied. That this could be a reality. Look what relationships, stress, dating does to the average woman. I fill my head with doubt to the point where...I'm not allowing myself to even let go of..."He could be like this, I don't think this is real..." I could go on. I made a personal promise to stop listing things. Cause it looks funny on a blog. I'm just wondering what will it take for me to let you into me withOUT any reservation or fear...

Lets start off with honesty. Because it is a tool that provides me to be able to stick to the man. And be able to just do the nothing that i do. I sell rabbits and talk shit and get paid.

NickiMinajinYoHeauxs

SO with that being said...There is this misconception that everyone is great at...

something. I just hope everyone sends this to its proper folks of error cause we can do better if we what...

WORK TWOGETHER!

• Rapper: I want to call you up personally and say what your mama, baby moms, and entire group of homeboys been wanting to tell you. NIGGA you suck. Your lyrical content is about as basic as lilduval entire existence. 
•  Managers: Okay. This is sensitive but if the shoe fits. Walk TEN toes down. If you been around this same negro for about...3 to 5 months now. And you ain't made you enough young monnay to buy you a volkswagen beetle. But you done been in 4535 videos, and polished all his homies. Your just a pussy prop. UnSNOOKI yourself and get it together. Damn bumpit. 
• Some Company with NO LLC/PHONEBOOK listing and you have 23,3455 Followers. The end. 
• Models...I could but couldn't and shouldn't. Models who make money have these things..Resume,CompCards,Portfolio (and pictures with clothes on professionally aimed towards them not the baffroom mirror)WEBSITE<<--- MYSPACE is not a fucking portfolio. That is a place for you to get pregnant and get gonorrhea stay off that shit.
• Atlanta Georgia You ain't special. You ain't near hollywood. I know i live inside of you. But you have attracted some weak bitch ass people here. And I will never forgive you for this shit. You owe me some money.  AND these men. Should date each other. I ain't interested. 
• Calls After 7pm You violating. You moving out of my comfort zone nigga its night time you trynna insult me? You only wanna call me after dark cause you think imma 'big booty freak' your wrong. I have sex like a mexican.
• Weaves(s) Come on. You heffas getting too attached to some shit that ain't yours..."I bought it" And? "Its not just weave its remy indian premium shipped." -deep yawn- Stop letting rope hang and choke you heffas.
• GROUPIES women embrace your groupie the same heffas who scream this "I ain't no groupie" is the same bitch that sat outside of Lil wayne bathroom stall in 05. Funny thing is. IF you aren't a groupie cool. Let them be them. Stop looking bitter and complaining that this is the reason why you can't find no damn man. Nah, There are more women on earth than men. Thats why you cannot find a man. Lick some pussy and move on. Men stop saying groupies this and groupies that. You still pay them to fuck and hang around and make appear to seem somewhat relevant. Your wife is a groupie. And she will have half of your monnay I don't care if you met her at 1st catherdal meddlepole baptist. Its a recession. Teachers dance at stripclubs and moms slang dope. Blame your government.
• Online Personality Funny thing about me is. You can literally ask someone how long has this girl acted fucking nutty. And they will say..Forever. Some of you get behind this screen and create balls that exist only in the mind of another mans penis.I have had some random folks that supposed to be somebodies get in my DM box, and act a dry durex fool.  And some of your ladies do the same. Your child is sitting right next to your punk ass with a stapler while you tinychat your titties. Or now you blawggin and famous. But I know that you still be beggin for napkins and achooing on babywipes. Don't get it, then leave it alone.

Morality Lesson.


ho sit down. - maceo. 
and remain seated until someone ushers you onto a better life. You making yourself look well...normal..EMBRACE normal. cause thats what you are. STOP reaching to be great. when your just....



normal. 

BlackWhiteGreenPurple. The race thing is really out of hand. Its sad that people really are going out their way to say 'I'm bi-racial, I don't want to be indentified with being black?!?' But that is a portion of your race. That is fine to want to be noticed for being biracial, I suppose. When your mom's and pops were fucking to make you I am sure they weren't like...'Oh I would love and old mexican n black baby!' Its really redundant.

I would blame a lot of different people for these 'image misconceptions' I know I may be considered 'Light Skin' But to most of the white people I grew up around. I was still being called a nigger. My 'light skin' didn't save me from being called a nigger or being made fun of because of my skintone. When I got around black kids they teased me even worse than the white folks. OH she think she cute cause she was mixed. I really never cared about my skin tone because my family never made it an issue. But being a child you process things. I think I thought everyone made a big deal outta something that didn't matter cause I have white aunt's cousins, etc.

Frankly. At 8 you could kiss my ass and miss with that light skin shit, i had barbies to play with and pranks to pull.


It hurt my feelings that people cared so much about things like this. but in time you just start to see that people's perception of beauty, what beauty should be is completely entirely distorted. People are reaching for shit that barely matters.





If you really are a 'disowning' your race. Your are disrespecting everyone that has struggled to get you to the point where you are now in life. Your ancestors and role models have paved the way. It shows sheer ignorance for you running around worrying about being 'mixed' when you go to job interviews them white people don't see you as being mixed. YOUR black. no matter how many combinations you put together. White people consider every person with hue. and a partial nap.Black. true story. There are way too many issues out here to be worried about than PUTTING BLEACH ON YOUR DAMN KIDS TO GET THEM LIGHTER.




now really, being a beautiful brown shade bothers you?! to the point where you would die to be LIGHTER? You can have my damn skin tone and see AIN'T A GOT DAMN THING GONNA CHANGE! who cares! Teach your kids how to be strong black men, how to survive REAL obstacles that they are going to face. Instead of drenching them down in man made chemicals. THE fuck is wrong with america? I don't want to be apart of this bullshit. You mean to tell me that shades of skin is more important than our lazy celebrity president not doing a damn thing but photo ops and twittering for innanet health care. I don't get jiggy with this shit. I don't appreciate my dollars going to any taxes until this fucked up economy is fixed.

And all these dumb ass rappers don't help women feel security or make them feel beautiful when they running to the first off brand 'so called exotic ho' they see with ass shots! Videos are filled with all kinds of wavy haired broads. Cast some different shades already. I am tired of all these kim kardashians, rosa acosta's, and whatever the fuck martian planet hos they be finding. show variety.

I don't give a fuck about you people or this wack shit you stand for. Get some orginality about yourself. Stop letting america dictate your happiness.

"if the shoe fits....force it?"


Ah the creatures of the earth we call men. To no avail we will sit and stare at the phone with bewitched nose twitching waiting for it to ring. For the longest time men were the furthest thing from my mind, I know how I got to this point. But going in I really did not know why IT is so hard to maintain a relationship with a man. I had no idea what I was signing up for when I decided to date men. I felt as if my so called ‘girlfriend’ would throw infidelity out the window as fast as the ‘typical’ man would. Then why just date women? Why not date them all, avoid being exclusive, and call it day. Sounds great? Right? No one wants to be in a relationship but no one wants to be a alone. The ultimate catch 22 in my eyes. So what would be a solution to a seemingly easy problem? I say be single. But for some reason. The economy sucks so I cannot be single without having to pay someone’s cell phone bill. Yes, I am such a good Samaritan for that FUCK Shit. The crazy thing about what I am going threw right now is I knew I loved this person as soon as I laid my eyes on them. That ultimately sounds like some 1986 crap. But in all it happened. So what do we do now, that we have to pay these bills and get this recession shit out of people [s] vocabulary?

chile boo.

chile please.


chile stop.


I don't know why the word 'chile' amuses the fuck outta my simple ass. But it does.

I went to the club I don't know why I keep putting myself thru the moving cymbalta commercials but...They got the worst niggers running the club. AFRICANS? yes, epic fail. He told a stripper I broke a 100 dollar bill and he told some musty twat hoe to give me a dance. Then...Some other mudduck said " Yall look alike cause you both got curly hair and glasses" [blank stare]

I never wanted someone off my lap so bad. I know my jeans need to be washed with monistat 7.