I think the hardest thing that has ever happened to me in my life is the lost of my Aunt Esther. I still wait for her knowing she won't return. I try to access my feelings but I stay gridlocked. Closure is never easy but it doesn't mean it doesn't happen....
I have went over this a million times in my head, in my plans. Everyone has mixed feelings about it but ultimately its up to you and the decision you choose. I was introduced to it a few years ago when I was younger. I remember thinking "This shit is nuts." No eating? We are going to die. This past winter I did it for about 15 days. I can honestly say I felt so many emotions, my mind was clearer, I felt better, I was able to rid my cold w/in a day or two and i usually stay sick for up to a week. I was ecstatic to lose those pounds too!
My relationship with food is ruining my progression with the cleanse. I have become so dependant on eating my feelings i cannot even start or finish the cleanse like I have conquered before. How does mind over matter work? Because that all it at the end of the day. I always aim for 40 days. It seems rather easy. How to I schedule things to work?
Honestly, in this point in my life. I am can say I am transitioning into real adulthood. It takes alot of bullshit to get you to the point where you are like. Damn, shit is changing. Fast. If you choose to take the high road and start really living. Doesn't make sense? Let me explain. You can be alive and not living life due to many reasons. Family, friends, your job, your student loans, your depression, your pain. There can be a million reasons or excuses you can use to prevent you from living life. The real horror is that we refuse to acknowledge the smallest things that really MAKE life worth living.
I feel like I have spent more time lying to myself, and running from the solutions instead of creating a new movement. I think alot of time we discouraged by the things that we are scared to take on. And alot of time you don't realize the negative entities that are keeping you complacent. I think I should stop here.
peace.
I decided to chatterbox with you all for a moment since I have been gone a majority of the year dedicating myself to a bunch of shit that didn't work out for me anyways. I decided why not dedicate myself to my own shit. SO that way when shit doesn't go the way I want, at least I know I was putting effort into myself and not anyone else. But people don't read anymore anyways so it doesn't matter. Unless I can trick you into reading by tweeting. "My pussy lips" or some other vulgar nonsense to get you to read what you never WANTED to waste 4 mins on reading anyways...Don't get me wrong I have enjoyed some of the things and various ventures but its definitely time to decide what will be done. I called myself halfway ass designing this too. Oh blah you get it. Welcome back doe
Sigh. Its been a long time since I been over here. 'I ain't gonna lie' I really like tumblr better. But that's neither here nor there. But I guess I still have some sort of commitment to blogger. Ill buy a domain name one damn day. I promise.
I am tired. Of people being named ignant shit like Tajuana. But its none of my business my name is Pam which isn't more more desirable. When I was 16, I was scared to even so much remotely do anything to piss my aunt off, and too scared to be in a gang. When children do things like this. 8 of 10 its because lack of attention. Stay on your kids. Be strict, but understanding. They will be okay, and when in doubt knock they monkey ass out.
Clearly, he ain't the motherfucking father. Why do you do this? For a free trip and hotel stay, cause, this right here is pure bullshit. Further more. WHAT.
Clearly, the damn captions write themselves. When you draw on MircoBrows, expect to be cheated on. Cause this means. Your walking around the house looking like Montel Williams all the damn time, he doesn't have eyebrows right? Furthermore, your main will look somewhere else if you start to look like a mexican Snooki. justsayindoe.
I never knew you had to have a spiritual aura to be the father of child. You look and sound like a real coon.
Marisol. Makes ME cringe. This is proof that true sloots come in all shapes n sizes. 16 men brought the show. Are you serious? What does your vagina have to say about this? I really highly doubt that one person can have that much unprotected sex. I guess where your from, they don't give out free condoms? I would only pray that Miss Marisol is taking care of her children. And the grow up to never, ever find out about the Maury show.The Maury Show is a insult to our intelligence, but none the less. Its still tragic but yet ole fashioned tv.
